In search of lost memories (Signed and numbered, edt of 33)

Hajime Kimura
In search of lost memories (Signed and numbered, edt of 33)

Photographs: Hajime Kimura

Publisher: Reminders photography stronghold

216 pages

Year: 2015

Comments: Hardcover, 20,4 x 14,5 cm, b&w and color photographs printed on wash papers. Numbered edition of 33 copies. In very good condition. Signed and dedicated by Hajime Kimura.

It was in January of this year when I realized that I lost my memory. When I found my family album during cleaning a closet. That was the trigger. I have dimmed, but partial memory before my mother died when I was 16 years old. I do have some memories, but they are not necessarily the ones in the photographs.  Those memories seem to be correct, my sister says. Though, few family memories are remembered when I was 16 years old to 29 years old. Especially memories when I was 29 years old is lacking, even it’s just 4 years ago.  Those photos were taken just before 3 months my father died. Come to think of it now, at the time I may try to imprint by force the fact that I was there by confirming those photos. I lost my memory totally but I pretend to remember, pretend to recognize the photos because they have become an imitation memory for me. I couldn’t remember most of the images. Seeing photos that I may shoot, I tell myself that my father really died.  After a few years later he died, I started tracing his footprints.  I thought it was the very only way to reduce the distance between him and me.

(From the artist's website)